Monday, December 1, 2014

Insert "What am I doing with my life" rant here

Guys, remember that thing about how I like fashion design but I'm also majoring in chemistry but taking fashion classes and maybe minoring in it and I wanna run a dress shop but chemistry will definitely pay better? (If you've read my About Me page, you know what I'm talking about)

Yeah, about that.

In my fashion class, we're basically designing our own line of clothes for a final project (we also have a final exam, but it's open book, so no big deal). We're in groups of 6, thank goodness, cuz this thing is huge. Also, I actually don't know what I'm doing.

See, in chem, I have incentive to actually learn the things, because it's my major and I have to know the things. I feel like I should be able to make stuff up and still get through fashion class just fine.

Just kidding. I can't.

Turns out creative people have a set process by which they do things, and you have to learn the process. And use it. I don't like set processes. This is not okay. (Also I feel super out of place in that class cuz everyone always looks cute and 98% of them are sorority girls and I'm always in sweats cuz I have a chem lab the same day as fashion class and I'm super lazy on Mondays and also I'm super not a sorority girl)

So I'm questioning my choice of a fashion minor. What if I just skip that bit? I still wanna know how to sew. I still hate using patterns and would rather just use a tutorial. I still wanna design some things myself. I just don't think I wanna take formal fashion classes. The internet is my friend.

And then I started thinking, once I get married and have kids and stuff, won't all this have been pointless? All the chem classes and research and mentorships and internships and all of the things?

What even is going on right now? And do I want to be fluent in French or is that another thing I've lost interest in?

Wow. Mmmmkay. I think I'm done now. Insert eternal perspective here. (Knowledge is good!)

<3 Marie-Rose


  1. Oh I know what you are going through! (Well, I guess not really, since I am only a sophomore and you are in the big world of college...but) Deciding is HARD! There seems to be so many good things that are exciting and fun and I almost wish someone would just make the choice for me.
    I definitely think you should follow your dreams. Don't choose not to pursue what you want just because you think it will be worthless later! Any skills you learn now will be helpful to your family, and crisis may come up when you will have to support yourself through a job. But make sure it's something you enjoy doing. Ah, a girls life is filled with so much uncertainty! In the end though, I think just pray and ask Heavenly Father which path would be best--he knows what will make you happiest in the long run.
    Sadly, that all is easier said than done...good luck! :)

    1. Thank you :) You're right, there's SO MUCH to choose from! I keep having to remind myself that hating one class does NOT mean that I should abandon that field of study entirely. We'll see where everything goes from here :)

      <3 Marie-Rose


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